A Decision
I’ve decided not to run after something anymore. I’m already tired. Besides, I don’t really like what I am doing. I’ve already had enough. My plate is already full and I don’t need an extra serving. But then, if I caught up — by accident — with the thing that I’m supposed to be running for… why not? That would be great and I would really appreciate that.
What the hell am I talking about? Oh, I’m talking about grades.
I’ve decided not to push my efforts to their maximum level. I’m no longer interested on getting enlisted as a Dean’s Lister. I don’t care anymore if there will be others who would surpass me when I know I can reach hinger mountains than them. I’m tired of memorizing dates, names, and other key terms. Surely, this is not the way you can measure a person’s intelligence, right? I’m not motivated to study hard. It’s goodbye high grades.
But is it? My blockmates told me that my grades are still satisfactory — Wow! Ang tataas naman ng mga grades mo! (Wow! Your grades are high!) — but then, they are not as satisfactory as when I had started going to college back last year. I know to how much extent I can do, and I’m only using 80% of my ability. And this is how I want to be now. Besides, my grades are not the things that make me; they’re just numbers. And as what Talamasca have commented, grades are not everything.
I want to thank all of those who have commented in an entry I posted back in June 28, LetÂ’s Talk About Grades, for their insightful comments. For those who have read that post, you might have thought that I’m still a grade conscious student, eh? Well, I’m not one of those kind of students anymore. I’ve relinquished my membership in that group. Yeah, I know, that my grades had gradually increased back in high school, and now, boom! There has been major changes in my grades. But as what I have written, I don’t really care.
But of course, I’ll still cherish those days when I got these…
My Awards. Those certificated have my real name printed, so I covered them.
That’s when the time when I really felt the tension building up against this certain person because of, ah, I’m not supposed to talk about that. And of course, I felt how to be on the stage to get my academic awards. That’s the first and I hope that it’s not the last (I hope that someday, I may get motivated to study hard again).
And those would remain as remembrances. Those would remind me that once, I was a very grade conscious student who was inspired by a best friend to perceive hard in school and that I have the ability to conquer foreign lands where other students haven’t set foot before.
Yes, this is the second half of LetÂ’s Talk About Grades. But I decided not to include this in that post, because as you have read, there’s no chance for my readers to get “inspired” with this post, unlike the previous one.
