Get Frustrated

As I write this, I’m sitting on a chair on the fifth floor of one of the buildings in school with my energetic and noisy classmates, and at least eight instructors in our room. My blockmates are waiting for their turn to perform a certain activity in front of one of our professors and as I am already done and passed with flying colors in our activity, I decided to write this.

Actually, I don’t know what will I write. I guess, I’ll just let my mighty 0.5 mechanical pencil lead my hand. You see, thoughts and ideas are overflowing in my mind and I don’t know which topic I would expound. More than that, ideas would sprout from nowhere like wild mushrooms at the most inconvenient time (e.g. while you are shopping at the mall), and when I get the chance to put my thoughts into writings, I’ve already forgotten them. My ideas are as if they were place inside a top hat and a magician transfigured them into a rabbit or a bouquet of roses.

Currently, I have two articles marked as drafts here in my blog (one of which is my original essay that my professor had marked with “Lifted Article?”). The other one is my own account of one of the most tragic events in my life which still needs further revisions. Besides, I’m waiting for the right time to publish them.

As I’m writing about blog entries, I may also write something about my LiveJournal account. It has become stagnant — mosquitoes started to treat it as their abode — and the entries that I posted there were just excerpts of my entries here. I guess, I’ll revamp it and make it as my private blog. I have so many things that I want to write and publish in the Internet but are not intended for the whole public to read. But I always forget or get lazy to revamp my LJ whenever I get the chance to do it. My other blogs has entered hibernation as well and I don’t know when I’ll be able to update them. I’m also planning to open again a photoblog but I’m not sure if I’ll be able to maintain it. This is the main reason why I hate maintaining multiple blogs. I cannot maintain them due to my busy schedule. But of course, this blog is updated more often than my other blogs.

Well, I guess, I’ll end this entry so I can draft my review of one of the books that I have recently read as I still have loads of free time.

Note: This was originally written two days ago. Today, I have successfully revamped my LJ account. I will also post my review of Marti Leimbach’s “Daniel Isn’t Talking” later or tomorrow.

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Stinks and Sells

Sorry, I neglected this blog for the past four days. I wasn’t visiting it much within that period. Why? I got some problems with my PC and I troubleshooted it alone. Thank God it’s normally working again. And oh, I got addicted to O2Jam. Haha.

So lets go to the topic. Back in high school, in our official publication, the Chimes, we have this write-up in our features section called “Ins and Outs.” I was one of those few people who contributed in that item. You might think that doing it is easy, but I tell you, thinking of what is “in” and what is “out” can be really time consuming.

And since my life is not that interesting lately because I’m just stuck at home (okay, I’m not saying that I’m bored) and I miss doing “Ins and Outs,” I’m gonna do one… my own version. And I’m calling it “Stinks and Sells.”

Dora the Explorer (negrang lakwatsera) stinks
Dora the Exploited1 (negrang GRO) sells?! Eek! Yeah, she sells her body.
Political ads stink
Makisig’s Lucky Me ad sells
Yahoo! stinks?
Google sells!
Summer sells
But because of the hot weather, I take my word back, it stinks!
School will stink forever
Rejoice for vacation sells!
O2Jam sells
But Audition sells better
“Pichay, itanim sa senado” stinks
“Pichay, itanim sa semento” sells
Amazing Race All-Stars really sells
But I still don’t know which team I’ll root for
Harry Potter sells
But does nude Daniel Radcliffe sells either?
Spams and spoiled hams2 stink
Hams sell
Ball pen stinks
Mechanical Pencil sells
Dial-up connection3 sells
But DSL4 sells even more
Maria Flordeluna stinks
Will Rounin sell or stink?
Robinson stinks
SM5 sells
WP 2.1.3 will stink soon
WP 2.2 will for sure sell

I want this to go on, but I’ve ran out of things to include in here. Oh, well, I’m off to read your blogs.

  1. It was one of my high school classmates who created this. []
  2. Spam comments from legitimate users []
  3. As long as the pages that I want to view load in a reasonable amount of time, it’s tolerable to me []
  4. I’m just waiting for the activation of my DSL. Thank you, God! []
  5. They’re constructing another annex in SM City Pampanga. It’s the third annex. []

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A Mind Boggling Week

[EDIT] I’ve just finished this layout. I’m planning to release this layout sometime during my vacation. If you found some bugs or errors, please report them. Btw, the header image that I used for this layout is from Vaughan. [/EDIT]

My mind has gone haywire. Please take that literally. My brain is really malfunctioning these days. I’m sure this is because I was working so hard that I was deprived from getting enough sleep this week.

Monday, I and my groupmates did our portfolio for English, but we were not even able to finish it. I also did my term paper for CF which was due the next day. Tuesday, I finished my reaction paper for Zoology (laboratory) which I passed the following day. Wednesday was the deadliest because I had to finish my book review for Philosophy which was yet again due the very next day. Thursday, I did my reaction paper for Zoology (lecture) which I had to pass yesterday. And not to mention brain twisting tests were given this week. I also had my oral test last Thursday in Philosophy which comprises half of my final examination. Of course, I did not review but my blockmates told me that I did great. They said that my attitude of being mean helped me. Lol.

Because I was thinking so hard about my long test in Zoology (lecture) about the reproductive system, I forgot to bring my reaction paper yesterday. I can’t go back home just to get it because it would take me approximately 1.75 hours and PHP 57.00. Fortunately, we did not have Zoology (laboratory) yesterday. But that time and the rest of the afternoon (as we didn’t also have Chemistry [laboratory]) was intended for doing our baby thesis for Filipino. While doing my work for our thesis, which includes translation of hard-to-translate English words, the acknowledgment part, and other sickening tasks, I rewrite my reaction paper. I was even able to pass it an hour before the deadline.

For five straight hours, we did our thesis. I did most of the typing because I was the fastest typist in our group. One of my groupmates even commented, “Hey, why don’t you accept typing job?” It was already five o’clock when I told my groupmates that live just somewhere near the school that I and five other groupmates still have to travel far to get back home. Yes, I sill have to travel far just to get back home but I went first to the same mall where I get stuck for more than eight hours alone last January, SM Clark. This time, I was still alone. Lol. Whatever.

Now, you may want to know why I went there even though I’m already tired and it’s even our finals starting Monday.

You see, last Monday, my friend lost my mechanical penil, my favorite mech pen. I’ve been using it for almost a whole semester. It’s a Pilot super grip 0.5 mech pen. I really like using pencil rather than a pen. Pencils save me a point or two in no-erasures-tests. But then, pencils are very hassle to use, you need to sharpen it every now and then. That’s why I decided to use mech pen again. So when my favorite mech pen was lost, my old mech pen was back in action. I hate using it because it’s very heavy, not like my favorite mech pen which was lightweight. So yesterday, I went there to buy myself a new one but still the same brand and color like that of the mech pen my friend lost.

I also bought the Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire DVD. I actually watched it yesterday evening and it was the reason why I wasn’t able to publish this yesterday. I really like it. It’s the best Harry Potter movie. And speaking of Harry Potter, I think I need to reread books five and six because on July, the fifth film and the last book would be released almost simultaneously. And oh, I think it’s great to hear the news that the trio (Daniel Radcliffe, Emma Watson and Rupert Grint) will also do the last two films.

Okay, how I knew that my mind’s malfunctioning? When I was on my way back home yesterday, the driver of the jeep gave me my change. I thought it was not mine and nobody was getting it so I gave it back to the driver. A few minutes later, I remembered that that change was mine. But then, to save myself from getting embarrassed, I didn’t ask for it anymore.

And if you have not noticed, I’ve been linking to Flickr.com throughout this post. I should say that I’m addicted with it. There are so many interesting photos there. And I badly want a pro account! To anybody out there who wants to give it to me as a gift, please contact me. The free account has many major setbacks.

As for today, I have to finish our website for Computer. Can somebody lend me his or her space? Don’t worry, I won’t take more than 5 MB of your space.

I’m off to read your blogs. Google Reader’s reporting that I have 100+ unread blog entries.

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Finding Solitude

Yes, I’m looking for solitude. No, I don’t have any emotional break-down or whatever. I don’t plan to kill myself. I just want to be alone. I want to hear the voice of silence. I want to be in nowhere where nobody will find me. Perhaps, that nowhere is an island here in the Philippines, far from civilization.

At my arrival in my new home, I’ll inspect the surroundings and find the perfect place to sleep. I would treat my new home as if it was the home I used to live in. At last, I can just be alone, with no one to disturb you all day long. No mother who’ll ask you to do an errand, no sister who’ll call you names, no teachers who’ll make you feel as if you were in hell, no friends who’ll chat with you until your jaw gets tires, no classmates who’ll ask you every now and then about the test in Zoology or Chemistry, no politicians to irritate you because of their corruptness, no techie stuffs that’ll take your boredom away in a mere second.

I will do there all the things that I wanted to do, things that I was deprived to do because of my so hectic life. I will try to finish there a novel with my mighty mechanical pencil and the Corona Notebook my grandmom gave me while sitting in the white sands, watching the rising or setting sun to inspire me. I will also do some affirmation with myself, retrospection, meditation, or whatever you want to call it. With that, I’ll know more about myself, I’ll know what’s the problem with my system and try to resolve it. I’ll have the chance to make room for the other things that I wanted to think of.

At night, I’ll be staring at the sky for hours, and try to memorize the stars and constellations that I’ll see, or read one of my favorite books under the bright moon while listening the chorus of the waves. I’ll be like that until sleep will come…

During the time to go back home, to the chaotic real world, I’ll be marking that island by putting a message with all my sentiments and the promise to return their someday inside a bottle in a two-feet-deep hole.

I know, I cannot do this as of this time. But before reaching the age of 30, I’ll make sure that I had been to an island here in the Philippines alone.

I believe that no man is an island, but I say, there are times when mas has to be an island.

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